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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
i guess finally i decided on doin this:
i need to vent out eveything once and for all..
the whole thing is a damn damn long story but i hav to cut it short...
T-my ex, c-that 3rd party.
all along when im with T, there's this C ard who like T alot....
from what i noe, after me and T got together, C still wouldnt give up and even moved into the same unit as T after that..
i couldnt stop it from happening....this is the first mistake/nightmare to our r/s....
those working at my workplace should know bah....
C just do whatever she wanted to be close to T....
as u noe then, as time goes by, they were closer and closer...
rumours between them spread all the time at our workplace....
always regarding 2 of them doin something which i hav no idea of..
i just feel that all these were so unfair to me as im his gf...
haha... but i just pretend i nv hear and choose to trust T lo....
some might be true, some might not be.
C did went to tell ppl bout her goin to his room and playing ps2 together, go jb together, eat supper together,.....
and she went to seduce a few of the guys working at my workplace..
(not that im saying runmours but those guys did tell me bout it, haha)
she also went to say things to others and told them not to let me noe..
there's even once when she came to tell me that a lot of guys like her and she was giggling non-stop..
i was thinkin is she trying to show off to me?
haha....
but my thinkin was just: it doesnt matter how many guys like u but to be with a guy that truely loves u and that u love him too.... isnt this right? y so greedy or desprate?
and of course i do think they chat everyday when they are smoking in their unit's kitchen..
at first i didnt noe y my bf did things this way and nv thought of my feelings, but now that i think bout it....i just simply noe y.
he never tried to prevent those things from happening and just betrayed our r/s....
during a period of time, they were on leave at the same time and C went to find him at his house at hometown. i was kept secret from this all along.... i felt hurt and stupid that i wasnt told bout it.
i just don understand y does C wanna do such stuff till so far....
she is just too much and really da worse person i've ever seen so far....
doesny this make them the worst human beings in the entire world?
whenever i ask him qns regarding to all these, he nv admits....
i truely thinks he only noes how to lie to me...
whatever that he has done i was willing to forgive at that time becoz all i wanted was to be with him....
but now its a totally different thing already.
then finally we made a decision to break off.
but during that time im sure T told C everything and she knew it all along.
i truely believe they will their retribute one day.
looking forward till that day=)
we broke off with the right reasons..
for me, its becoz i finally dared to face reality and noe i should let go when im not happy with him. he nv gave me true happiness and he's not a guy who is worth me loving and caring for.. the worst thing of all is that im kept from the truth.. and he betrayed our r/s and me.... he fall for another gal....
for his reasons, he said our character don suits, our background different, age gap.... all the reasons were like physically kind and really don play a part in preventing 2 person from being together....
but im sure his reason is bcoz he fall for C le..
after T & me broke off not long later, we talked through and T finally admits to me that he had feelings for C. i just have the feeling that it happened long ago but he didnt admit or tell anyone. for this reason i will nv understand y he still choose to be with me and not to end it once and for all.
i really think that im 100% better than C.... i really truly think like this.... haha.... it's really true i guess....(c im so proud now! haha)
and there's these thing bout C that i don understand about. i heard that she's goin out with another guy now.. i couldnt understand y is the situation like this? there's so much that she did in the past 2 yrs to create problems between me and T and we really broke off like how she wanted but now? she nv choose to be with T but instead go out with another guy at the same time? i heard they hold hands till C realise T saw then she let go of the other guy's hand.... dotssssss..........?
i need to vent out eveything once and for all..
the whole thing is a damn damn long story but i hav to cut it short...
T-my ex, c-that 3rd party.
all along when im with T, there's this C ard who like T alot....
from what i noe, after me and T got together, C still wouldnt give up and even moved into the same unit as T after that..
i couldnt stop it from happening....this is the first mistake/nightmare to our r/s....
those working at my workplace should know bah....
C just do whatever she wanted to be close to T....
as u noe then, as time goes by, they were closer and closer...
rumours between them spread all the time at our workplace....
always regarding 2 of them doin something which i hav no idea of..
i just feel that all these were so unfair to me as im his gf...
haha... but i just pretend i nv hear and choose to trust T lo....
some might be true, some might not be.
C did went to tell ppl bout her goin to his room and playing ps2 together, go jb together, eat supper together,.....
and she went to seduce a few of the guys working at my workplace..
(not that im saying runmours but those guys did tell me bout it, haha)
she also went to say things to others and told them not to let me noe..
there's even once when she came to tell me that a lot of guys like her and she was giggling non-stop..
i was thinkin is she trying to show off to me?
haha....
but my thinkin was just: it doesnt matter how many guys like u but to be with a guy that truely loves u and that u love him too.... isnt this right? y so greedy or desprate?
and of course i do think they chat everyday when they are smoking in their unit's kitchen..
at first i didnt noe y my bf did things this way and nv thought of my feelings, but now that i think bout it....i just simply noe y.
he never tried to prevent those things from happening and just betrayed our r/s....
during a period of time, they were on leave at the same time and C went to find him at his house at hometown. i was kept secret from this all along.... i felt hurt and stupid that i wasnt told bout it.
i just don understand y does C wanna do such stuff till so far....
she is just too much and really da worse person i've ever seen so far....
doesny this make them the worst human beings in the entire world?
whenever i ask him qns regarding to all these, he nv admits....
i truely thinks he only noes how to lie to me...
whatever that he has done i was willing to forgive at that time becoz all i wanted was to be with him....
but now its a totally different thing already.
then finally we made a decision to break off.
but during that time im sure T told C everything and she knew it all along.
i truely believe they will their retribute one day.
looking forward till that day=)
we broke off with the right reasons..
for me, its becoz i finally dared to face reality and noe i should let go when im not happy with him. he nv gave me true happiness and he's not a guy who is worth me loving and caring for.. the worst thing of all is that im kept from the truth.. and he betrayed our r/s and me.... he fall for another gal....
for his reasons, he said our character don suits, our background different, age gap.... all the reasons were like physically kind and really don play a part in preventing 2 person from being together....
but im sure his reason is bcoz he fall for C le..
after T & me broke off not long later, we talked through and T finally admits to me that he had feelings for C. i just have the feeling that it happened long ago but he didnt admit or tell anyone. for this reason i will nv understand y he still choose to be with me and not to end it once and for all.
i really think that im 100% better than C.... i really truly think like this.... haha.... it's really true i guess....(c im so proud now! haha)
and there's these thing bout C that i don understand about. i heard that she's goin out with another guy now.. i couldnt understand y is the situation like this? there's so much that she did in the past 2 yrs to create problems between me and T and we really broke off like how she wanted but now? she nv choose to be with T but instead go out with another guy at the same time? i heard they hold hands till C realise T saw then she let go of the other guy's hand.... dotssssss..........?
for now i really wish i didnt hav known T at all....
i might wanna pretend tat i nv knew him before....
this is not that i cant let go but he's really too much....
im living better now which is better then him still in another hole trying hard for that C mayb?
im very sure i can find a guy who will treasure me=)